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Intro
01:16
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My mind is racing
My hands won't stop shaking
I can't stop from pacing
I'm so worn out
And I just barely can get through the day
And I've given up and I just don't care
There's already enough shit in the air
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Panic Disorder
03:05
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I think I'm really losing my grip
I can feel myself start to slip
I think I've lost my mind
But I should be just fine if I can just hold on for my life
This is a feeling I just can't shake
Dread every minute that I'm awake
No matter what I try
I'm still barely getting by
Always feeling like I'm gonna die
And all these petty fears I hoped I left behind
But I just can't change and it's killing me
My thoughts are starting to wear me down
I'll stay strong
Keep my feet on the ground
Above everything else
I've lost control of myself
Panic, it keeps me up all night
Exhausted, but I'm forced to fight
Because I know that I'm not alright
Always grinding my teeth
'Cause I'm constantly numb
What have I become?
And every day I'm just impatiently sitting here
Waiting for some type of change so I can feel sane again
Don't need your advice and I don't need a psychiatrist
I just need a little space so I can clear my mind
And all these doctors say, "This goes away with time"
But its been eight years and I still live in fear
My thoughts are starting to wear me down
I'll stay strong
Keep my feet on the ground
Above everything else
I've lost control of myself
Panic, it keeps me up all night
Exhausted, but I'm forced to fight
Because I know that I'm not alright
I'm not alright
And I'll never be alright
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Conspire
03:13
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Long days and lonely nights are what I've been restricted to
It's been a long time since I've felt right
And I'm still pushing all the blame on you
So tell me something that I didn't already know
And all those fucked up things you put me through don't matter 'cause they all forced me to grow
When you see me around don't say a word
And I don't wish any bad for you
I'm just hoping that some day soon you will learn
With every passing day
My feelings for you just fade away
As you continue to dig your own grave
And every time I try to forget you I'll fight fire with fire
I hope we'll conspire
Blame all your pain on me
I don't care at all
And if the truth is what you wanna hear
I won't be there to catch you when you fall
Call me crazy but I've conquered all my fears
Regarding losing you forever
'Cause I know some day you'll get what you deserve
With every passing day
My feelings for you just fade away
As you continue to dig your own grave
And every time I try to forget you I'll fight fire with fire
And I hope we'll conspire
In the back of my head are the words that she spoke
Exposing her lies as I felt myself choke
I watched as our lives just both blew up in smoke
You looked me dead in the eyes as you cut my throat (x2)
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Dynamics
03:10
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So take me back to those days where I felt so alive
Leave back this stress and this anger that builds up with time
And controls my mind
And I just, I just can't take this
Every single day
I feel so helpless now
And I'm sick of faking a smile
Just to hide the fact that I feel so down
Take it back
I'll take it back to what I felt
Last night that made me feel like I was whole again
But it still just wasn't enough
And every time I think of what had got me through
It still reminds me, still reminds me of you
But it still just wasn't enough to
Help me clear the air
And figure out where everything went wrong
'Cause I'm tired of sitting here
Waiting for a sign
Anything that can help me now
And some day I know I'll leave this place behind
And somehow I know I'll miss it
All these memories are stores inside
Take it back
I'll take it back to what I felt
Last night that made me feel like I was whole again
But it still just wasn't enough
And every time I think of what had got me through
It still reminds me, still reminds me of you
Candid with nothing to say
I just fade away
And I pray that its just a phase
'Cause nothings okay
This self hate, it grows everyday
I can't run away
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5. |
Head Games
03:28
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Betrayal is the only thing that I feel now
And this time you really let me down
But I'll pick myself up off the ground and
Realize you're a waste of my time
And the way you handled this was just so out of line
I'm a little bitter
Past the point of upset
But I can clearly see you for what you've become now
So Keep your mouth and your legs shut
'Cause I won't be fooled again
It took so long to realize
You're everything I despise
Go feed someone else your lies
You were only in my way
We'll never be the same
I'm done with your fucking games
The pressure is weighing down on me
I can't breathe and you're the reason why
So take a good look
I'm everything that I wanna be
I've accomplished so much and I won't let you belittle me
All the things that went down just prove that we were not meant to be
Set me loose from your grip 'cause I'm ready to feel free
And I'm not sad to see us meet our end
And I assure you that we'll never just be friends
We'll never be friends
And when I see you passing by
I won't feel anything
It took so long to realize
You're everything I despise
Go feed someone else your lies
And you were only in my way
We'll never be the same
I'm done with your fucking games
I'm through playing these games
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6. |
Surviving The Worst
03:49
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I always punch the walls until my knuckles bleed
'Cause it's the only thing that gives me some relief
From all this pressure now
I feel like such a waste
And I just can't escape this resentment and hate
I have for myself now
But I won't give in
I'll take these temptations to my grave
I don't feel receptive today
'Cause everything I say gets interpreted all the wrong ways
I can't even understand myself
I need something more
'Cause I can't take anymore
Back in the day
Where I would tread my feet longer
I felt so much stronger
Nothing in my way
Except this life that's ahead
That will tear me up limb from limb
I try to escape but these walls, they don't seem to break
Cluster phobia
I feel it in my bones
Surviving the worst but still standing tall
I'm still standing tall
Give me something more
'Cause I can't take anymore
Back in the day
Where I would tread my feet longer
I felt so much stronger
Nothing in my way
Except this life that's ahead
That will tear me up limb from limb
Back in the day
Where we would tread our feet longer
We felt so much stronger
Nothing in our way
Except this life that's ahead
That will tear us up limb from limb
So chew me up and spit me out
This world's a fucked up place
Back stabbing everywhere I look
What the fuck
Just take me back to those days
Where everything felt so surreal
So surreal
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