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Surviving The Worst

by Deeper By The Day

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1.
Intro 01:16
My mind is racing My hands won't stop shaking I can't stop from pacing I'm so worn out And I just barely can get through the day And I've given up and I just don't care There's already enough shit in the air
2.
I think I'm really losing my grip I can feel myself start to slip I think I've lost my mind But I should be just fine if I can just hold on for my life This is a feeling I just can't shake Dread every minute that I'm awake No matter what I try I'm still barely getting by Always feeling like I'm gonna die And all these petty fears I hoped I left behind But I just can't change and it's killing me My thoughts are starting to wear me down I'll stay strong Keep my feet on the ground Above everything else I've lost control of myself Panic, it keeps me up all night Exhausted, but I'm forced to fight Because I know that I'm not alright Always grinding my teeth 'Cause I'm constantly numb What have I become? And every day I'm just impatiently sitting here Waiting for some type of change so I can feel sane again Don't need your advice and I don't need a psychiatrist I just need a little space so I can clear my mind And all these doctors say, "This goes away with time" But its been eight years and I still live in fear My thoughts are starting to wear me down I'll stay strong Keep my feet on the ground Above everything else I've lost control of myself Panic, it keeps me up all night Exhausted, but I'm forced to fight Because I know that I'm not alright I'm not alright And I'll never be alright
3.
Conspire 03:13
Long days and lonely nights are what I've been restricted to It's been a long time since I've felt right And I'm still pushing all the blame on you So tell me something that I didn't already know And all those fucked up things you put me through don't matter 'cause they all forced me to grow When you see me around don't say a word And I don't wish any bad for you I'm just hoping that some day soon you will learn With every passing day My feelings for you just fade away As you continue to dig your own grave And every time I try to forget you I'll fight fire with fire I hope we'll conspire Blame all your pain on me I don't care at all And if the truth is what you wanna hear I won't be there to catch you when you fall Call me crazy but I've conquered all my fears Regarding losing you forever 'Cause I know some day you'll get what you deserve With every passing day My feelings for you just fade away As you continue to dig your own grave And every time I try to forget you I'll fight fire with fire And I hope we'll conspire In the back of my head are the words that she spoke Exposing her lies as I felt myself choke I watched as our lives just both blew up in smoke You looked me dead in the eyes as you cut my throat (x2)
4.
Dynamics 03:10
So take me back to those days where I felt so alive Leave back this stress and this anger that builds up with time And controls my mind And I just, I just can't take this Every single day I feel so helpless now And I'm sick of faking a smile Just to hide the fact that I feel so down Take it back I'll take it back to what I felt Last night that made me feel like I was whole again But it still just wasn't enough And every time I think of what had got me through It still reminds me, still reminds me of you But it still just wasn't enough to Help me clear the air And figure out where everything went wrong 'Cause I'm tired of sitting here Waiting for a sign Anything that can help me now And some day I know I'll leave this place behind And somehow I know I'll miss it All these memories are stores inside Take it back I'll take it back to what I felt Last night that made me feel like I was whole again But it still just wasn't enough And every time I think of what had got me through It still reminds me, still reminds me of you Candid with nothing to say I just fade away And I pray that its just a phase 'Cause nothings okay This self hate, it grows everyday I can't run away
5.
Head Games 03:28
Betrayal is the only thing that I feel now And this time you really let me down But I'll pick myself up off the ground and Realize you're a waste of my time And the way you handled this was just so out of line I'm a little bitter Past the point of upset But I can clearly see you for what you've become now So Keep your mouth and your legs shut 'Cause I won't be fooled again It took so long to realize You're everything I despise Go feed someone else your lies You were only in my way We'll never be the same I'm done with your fucking games The pressure is weighing down on me I can't breathe and you're the reason why So take a good look I'm everything that I wanna be I've accomplished so much and I won't let you belittle me All the things that went down just prove that we were not meant to be Set me loose from your grip 'cause I'm ready to feel free And I'm not sad to see us meet our end And I assure you that we'll never just be friends We'll never be friends And when I see you passing by I won't feel anything It took so long to realize You're everything I despise Go feed someone else your lies And you were only in my way We'll never be the same I'm done with your fucking games I'm through playing these games
6.
I always punch the walls until my knuckles bleed 'Cause it's the only thing that gives me some relief From all this pressure now I feel like such a waste And I just can't escape this resentment and hate I have for myself now But I won't give in I'll take these temptations to my grave I don't feel receptive today 'Cause everything I say gets interpreted all the wrong ways I can't even understand myself I need something more 'Cause I can't take anymore Back in the day Where I would tread my feet longer I felt so much stronger Nothing in my way Except this life that's ahead That will tear me up limb from limb I try to escape but these walls, they don't seem to break Cluster phobia I feel it in my bones Surviving the worst but still standing tall I'm still standing tall Give me something more 'Cause I can't take anymore Back in the day Where I would tread my feet longer I felt so much stronger Nothing in my way Except this life that's ahead That will tear me up limb from limb Back in the day Where we would tread our feet longer We felt so much stronger Nothing in our way Except this life that's ahead That will tear us up limb from limb So chew me up and spit me out This world's a fucked up place Back stabbing everywhere I look What the fuck Just take me back to those days Where everything felt so surreal So surreal

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released May 27, 2015

All Music Written By Deeper By The Day
All Lyrics Written By Tyler Zervas
Recorded/Mixed & Mastered by Chris Piquette at No Boundaries Studio
Album Artwork by Marcus Casey

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